smokeandbeer

I do genuinely think that this semester has been harder than the O level period. Nonetheless, it has passed and I'm rather relieved.

I havent posted for 3 months and this blog looks rather dead. I'm gonna try to revive it now.

Too bad the above is only what i can think of now.

Is this dead? Not yet. Guess what, tests are over, and another term has passed. Time is passing like a bullet train and everything seems to change so quickly now. People, moods and the weather.

And so I've picked this time to blog because I simply can't sleep because tests are over. Recently I've been losing sleep, particular i the mornings where I'd wake up for no reason and cannot go back to sleep again, which are really screwing me.

My com has been giving me alot of problems lately and finally I've gonna have it reformatted tmr at a geek's house.

It;s sad that I won't been having a proper holiday this year, as did with last year, but never mind. Whenever it comes to this period of the year, I've always happy with what i have. More so this year.

Anyway, that's all I have for today, more tomorrow, more the day after, or the day after that, or maybe 3 months.

Remember a few posts ago that I said that love does not have a meaning, well now it befits the phrase, ' being fucked up'.

Love is a double edged sword. Love is being stressed. Love is unfair. Love is something you have to give and be given, not to be taken. Love is shit. Love is crap. Love is, putting it bluntly, involving both parties' sexual organs. Love is not being happy, but contented. Love isn't perfect because no one is. Love is sleeping on a king-sized bed. Love is when your mum shits and your dad bathes. Love is something you think you have. Love is red lipstick. Love is in the form of a heart shape. Love is gulping down alcohol profusely. Love is chain smoking. Love is emotional. Love is demoralising.

Different ways to describe love, but more importantly, nothing still explains it.

Last day of holidays today and I'm going to enjoy it as much as possible. When I say enjoy, it's staying at home and chilling.

And so I've finished the 100 cigarettes on Saturday so it's 100 in 11 days. Not sure it that's a record.

So this may be my last post for a while.

Today I went to Orchard with Sel and Evan because they said they were buying stuff and I just decided to tag along. In the end they bought nothing and I bought a pair of pants and a shirt.

And then we went to Flyer to have a Fried Chicken dinner. We talked about old times in secondary school and how good it was compared to now, like the apocalyptically stupid things we did then. What burning a pillar, making a fire'wall', stealing things and the trolley. Oh boy the trolley, made us laugh like mad.

So i'm looking at the LV website now, scanning through what may be my next wallet, but I'm still undecided whether to buy it or to save up.

We should all be grateful to live in Singapore, free of natural disasters and not so bad weather.

There were many natural disasters in the past month and they have been coming thick and fast so we may even be confused with went with which. Typhoon in indonesia? Earthquake in Philippines?

Typhoons have been becoming more and more powerful over the years and his year it had killed dozens if not hundreds in Vietnam and Philippines. And we get the word of Manila being 80% flooded. Manila is a big city and let's say 3 million people live in there, that's 2.4 million people displaced. And still word has it that another typhoon is going hit Japan soon. They aren't only becoming more powerful but also more frequent and what contributes to all this madness? Global warming. And still America and China do not want to significantly reduce their greenhouse emissions. If every country can do it, so can they. They are contributing to people's deaths indirectly and that really pisses me off.

And then there's earthquakes. These are completely unavoidable and unpredictable. 2 in Indonesia, 1 that generated a tsunami in Samoa and both combined has killed thousands.

Think of this, people in other parts of the world are living their lives on the edge and we here, sitting and complaining that the weather's too hot and all those trivial matters. It just puts me to shame.

If this continues, Doomsday 2012 would be something true indeed.

I have a 100 cigarettes in my bag now, lol.

Wonder how i'm gonna finish them.

Well today's the first proper day i had a rest in a month and, what a month it was. If it wasnt for the burden cpf I would have 1.2k in my pocket but as it is, it's still a cool 1k and the best thing is it's coming in mid or end october.

So i might think that this holidays has been perfect because i've still got 2 weeks of further rest. Or is it?

Remeber on my last post that said I'll be gone to sleep for a very long time, that was the plan. Until morning that is. Fucking people renovating the house upstairs at 8 in the morning. So i slept at 2 and woke up at 8, great start. And it has been going on until today and will probably start tomorrow again.

And then there's the view from my room window, it's unblocked and I can see the sunset everyday, but the sun shines in the afternoon making my room very warm.

There's life, and I mean single life. Nothing to worry about, nothing to care about, no burdens, no fights, not over-spending money (if you exclude cigarettes that is). And then sometimes you just wish for someone to be beside you, to go through tough times with you, to console you when you're down.

Nothing's perfect in the world, but some things are, in mine.

Today was last day of work and I think it's 4 weeks well spent. In contrast to rotting at at home and not getting a single cent, 4 weeks of working on an honestly boring job seems great and the best thing is, there is a sense of achievement for this holidays. Anyway, I've still got 2 more weeks of rest to go, so I'm quite glad things have worked out the way they did. I not only made money but also new friends, new people and got a taste of how office life is.

And the verdict is, as a full time job, an office job is second only to sticking your hands up a horse's backside. It is that bad. Having said that, usually jobs which are boring pay a lot more than jobs which are interesting, which has lead me to think that you can never have an occupation that you wanted.

All of these, coupled with the guarantee of more than 8 hours sleep tonight, makes me really excited for tomorrow's gathering.

I'm off to my pillow now, and will be for some time. Good night.

What is love? This a question which is as vague as let's say one of Pluto's moons.

To me, love is to have a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person. Alright let's say that you've always wanted a Ferrari, and you'd like a Porsche which is technically a better car then the Ferrari, which would you choose? You've got tons of respect for the Porsche, but you would eventually want the Ferrari even though it is more expensive because you've got the passion for it; you'd wanna make love to it. Love works practically in the same way, you have to have passion to love somebody if not no matter how much you try you can't love her. This is my thinking.

But there are some other points. Most say love really isn't a real thing. Love means the guy wanting sex and the girl needing someone to love, which I agree with it. However, this may not be true as some people can put aside these things and still be together. But, then again, how long do the 2 parties really love each other for? Forever until they die? No.

It's hard to really comprehend the meaning of passion but for me, it's something to do with your mental state. Being passionate about something is one that can be explained by many things. However, not all of these are explanable.

'There is no love in the world'. What do you think about this statement? And is there such a thing as true love (I'm not talking about mother bathing, father shitting)? Everyone has their own ways of defining love but for me it is still something which cannot be explained, maybe you can have a try.